Here's to change.
Sunday, April 29, 2012
Day Three..... Seven to go!
I've geared myself up for so long for this and its really here! REALLY! I did this back in November, it should be easy, right? WRONG! I'm struggling more this time than ever before! I've come this far, I should be able to just do it. One would think. I'm doing it, but its definitely not easy! Seven more days. I don't miss chewing, not really! I find myself wanting to eat when I'm BORED! Wonder if this means I've been bored most of my adult life?! If that is the case, I need to not be bored anymore and whoop it up!
Monday, April 23, 2012
Surgery Date Set.
First I just want to thank ALL of you (I have 11 followers, but I know there are more who are reading) who have been supportive of me on this journey that I started 11 months ago. Ia feel like I need to explain a few things to those of you who read this and support me (& even those who don't). May 7th, I will undergo a Sleeve Gastrectomy http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sleeve_gastrectomy. I went for my pre-op exam. 307.6 is the next to final weight. I must continue to lose in the next two weeks. It should really be easy. Liquid diet (the one I did in November) will commence for TWO weeks on Friday, April 27th. Which is why I have been asking for low fat/ high protein soup recipes.
This journey over the last 11 months has just been the beginning of a life long commitment to getting healthier and staying healthy! My decision to do this was not entered lightly. I didn't do this to "get skinny." I chose this path because I kept yo-yo'ing back and forth in my weight and when I peaked 300 pounds I just gave up trying. My primary physician suggested this to me over two years ago, but I declined then. I didn't get this way from surgery, I was not go to reverse it with surgery. Then a bunch of health problems started to loom due to my OVER 50% BMI. Cholesterol was rising, High Sugar reared its ugly head. A heart murmur had developed. I was unable to bend over and tie my shoes (I know, I know.. laugh cuz I don't wear them, but in the winter one must), couldn't put on my sox without becoming out of breath, forget getting off the floor without a struggle, couldn't sit cross legged on the floor, had to buy "re-enforced" furniture for the summer. I didn't want this for myself anymore. I want to be able to see ALL of my children grown and be successful.
So for those of you who are in great support, without judgement and are asking about it. I appreciate it in more ways than you can imagine. I thank you for caring, for listening to me about my journey, struggle, successes. Like I said, Friday I will begin the real journey. Please feel free to ask questions, lend support, keep me in your prayers for my success over the next few weeks into months. Positive energy, thoughts, and prayers are always welcome. This girl will transform into HALF the body I am now, but NOT half the person.
If you disagree, I'm sorry I don't have your support and that you disagree with my choice. Please keep the negativity to yourself.
for a "picture" of how this will look.... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IjxFjI69bEI
Love to you all! <3
This journey over the last 11 months has just been the beginning of a life long commitment to getting healthier and staying healthy! My decision to do this was not entered lightly. I didn't do this to "get skinny." I chose this path because I kept yo-yo'ing back and forth in my weight and when I peaked 300 pounds I just gave up trying. My primary physician suggested this to me over two years ago, but I declined then. I didn't get this way from surgery, I was not go to reverse it with surgery. Then a bunch of health problems started to loom due to my OVER 50% BMI. Cholesterol was rising, High Sugar reared its ugly head. A heart murmur had developed. I was unable to bend over and tie my shoes (I know, I know.. laugh cuz I don't wear them, but in the winter one must), couldn't put on my sox without becoming out of breath, forget getting off the floor without a struggle, couldn't sit cross legged on the floor, had to buy "re-enforced" furniture for the summer. I didn't want this for myself anymore. I want to be able to see ALL of my children grown and be successful.
So for those of you who are in great support, without judgement and are asking about it. I appreciate it in more ways than you can imagine. I thank you for caring, for listening to me about my journey, struggle, successes. Like I said, Friday I will begin the real journey. Please feel free to ask questions, lend support, keep me in your prayers for my success over the next few weeks into months. Positive energy, thoughts, and prayers are always welcome. This girl will transform into HALF the body I am now, but NOT half the person.
If you disagree, I'm sorry I don't have your support and that you disagree with my choice. Please keep the negativity to yourself.
for a "picture" of how this will look.... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IjxFjI69bEI
Love to you all! <3
Sunday, April 8, 2012
307.4 and a date in place
Its been a wild ride the past few months. I just realized I haven't said anything, well not published anyway.. i've written, but just didnt post.. So I've posted my those past two posts today.. Probably because I went backwards and was so disappointed in myself that I didnt want to disappoint anybody else either, but since I started this journey LAST June I've managed to come full circle and realize........I've done it. Hit my weight goal and still working at it. And when I mean working at it,, it truly is just the beginning of work. Probably the hardest I've ever worked at anything in my life. This is serious business.
I've done it! I've made my weight goal and have been approved with a date in place. It all just came to be so real yesterday. My emotions, as if they weren't enough already, ran away with me IN the car none the less; so I really couldn't go anywhere to hide, and once again, there were pieces to be picked up,doubts to be reassured of. I am truly blessed with family I have. . I truly do have a great support system in place.
I do need to say this...... I am doing this for HEALTH reasons and for ME. I'm not doing it to get "skinny" or so others will like me or so I dont have to work at maintaining. This is not the goal, just a step towards the goal. I will have to work harder to maintain. So if I seem less than receptive to your comments, its because I've heard some pretty negative things about this whole idea for me and honestly I dont need it. So if you dont agree with my decision or want to be genuinely supportive then dont say anything
I will keep those of you subscribed updated as I venture through. I love those of you who are in my corner!
<3
I've done it! I've made my weight goal and have been approved with a date in place. It all just came to be so real yesterday. My emotions, as if they weren't enough already, ran away with me IN the car none the less; so I really couldn't go anywhere to hide, and once again, there were pieces to be picked up,doubts to be reassured of. I am truly blessed with family I have. . I truly do have a great support system in place.
I do need to say this...... I am doing this for HEALTH reasons and for ME. I'm not doing it to get "skinny" or so others will like me or so I dont have to work at maintaining. This is not the goal, just a step towards the goal. I will have to work harder to maintain. So if I seem less than receptive to your comments, its because I've heard some pretty negative things about this whole idea for me and honestly I dont need it. So if you dont agree with my decision or want to be genuinely supportive then dont say anything
I will keep those of you subscribed updated as I venture through. I love those of you who are in my corner!
<3
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